Post by Asako Kojima on Oct 21, 2011 1:56:09 GMT -5
(Ooc Note, Please Read the Spoiler)
Name: Asako Kojima (Birth name was Vera Marciano)
Gender: Female
Age: 18
Height: 162 cm
Weight: 56 kg
Appearance:
Asako has light brown hair that reaches four inches beyond her shoulders. It appears to be straight as its texture and zigzagged at the bottom. Her bangs are pushed to the sides with two hair pins at each side except for the center area. They appear to be two separate strand split at the center. She has large hazel eyes that are droppy with glasses in front of them with red ovular shapes. Asako's skin tone is medium. Scars from a fire cover her left cheek, back, stomach, and upper thighs. She uses make up to cover it up, though.
Personality:
Asako has a habit of constantly daydreaming about a large variety of things. It can range from a small detail in the outside world to something that's completely out of the blue. While "in her own little world" it may look like she's not paying attention to her surroundings.What the case really is is that her daydream is more exciting or worth more concern to her than the outside world at the moment, but at the same time she can still be aware of what goes on around her. Her reactions to whatever is interrupting her daydream would always be late due to having herself trying to get more focussed. When she's completely daydreaming, its when Asako's idle or bored. Even when Asako is interacting more with other things, a small part of her subconscious seems to still be in a daydream even though she's trying to focus or do something else that makes her busy since she says or does things considered abnormal or eccentric to most people. Asako's mind has a tendency to wander in her thoughts on the other hand of daydreaming too.
Curiousity is one of Asako's oldest characteristics that hasn't changed much. It went away in certain periods of her life, but it always came back in the same condition as ever. At a young age, she found out that the more she knew about whatever she wanted to know about, the more she would be able to use what it was to it's full potential however she pleases. (If it's a person, it's most likely Asako fears them and wants to end that reason of why she fears them or they helped her in many situations and wants to know what their motives were for.) Asako finds that the more she answers the questions that keep popping in her head once she becomes interested in whatever it is, the less annoyed she gets and the more easier life becomes for her state of mind.
On the outside, Asako appears to be someone with no common sense when it comes to the rules. Asako isn't bothered by anything until she herself has experienced what's causing that feeling. She looks like she's about to fall asleep most of the time due to her eyelids lowering here and there, her slow speech that stops and continues once in awhile, how she has late reactions when someone's trying to get her attention, said reactions sometimes don't fit well with what's going on, her emotions are seen to be subtle as if not much effort is given to express them, and how Asako's movements seem slow. Asako becomes more focussed in conversations that last more than a few minutes. Everything people say she takes seriously no matter what their tone at the time may be. Her behavior seems laid back and blunt towards others, but it's not violent or over emotional. She comes off as insensitive when she says what she thinks out loud since she doesn't see a problem to it. When she's intimidated ,angry, or scared, Asako stays quiet or will do something irrational if under enough pressure.
Part of Asako's mentality differs from her outter personality. Appearing to be somewhat clueless on the outside, Asako actually has a good idea what's going on around her even though she doesn't appear or act like it. She can think of a large amount of thoughts and come up with well developed plans in short amounts of time. There are times when Asako's thinking can't come to any conclusion that she wants to follow or halts, which causes her to instantly freeze up. Her pauses are caused by her trying to remember the proper words to say due to Japanese not being her native language and trying to be cautious of what she says and how she says what she's saying. Asako has a cynical view on humanity, thinking that whatever anyone does is for their own good rather than another. She doesn't think of it as a bad thing but rather a normal human characteric or a survival instinct. That doesn't mean that Asako won't watch herself around others though. It's hard for her to completely trust anyone even when she wants to. Asako can't help but to get nervous and shy away from people when she thinks she might become close to a friend to them or the other way around, even though they may seem harmless. It's easy for her to suspect people when they ask about her personal life since she knows that it's something that can be used against her for future references. Asako believes the only people who should know about her personal life is the people she can completely count on. She's instantly on edge if someone even goes that far to ask and thinks like someone whose paranoid. Asako's rather disconnected from others due to being afraid of befriending others and prefers to stick to already established relationships she has. Asako feels lonely at the same though, so she has mixed feelings on this type of matter. She has a case of shadenfreude, which varies why all of the time. Most of the time, it's because she's glad its not her getting hurt. Even with people Asako's close to, she'll gain some sort of pleasure from their pain. However, she will help those people reluctantly to keep them around. Everyone else is a different story. Asako will gladly express it in words due to not seeing how it will cause much trouble as long as she's not actually doing anything. She's almost oblivious to how wrong saying such things are. Asako doesn't really say anything but smile when it comes to shadenfreude, but will talk about it in places that conceal her identity like chatrooms. Her's is a mindset that has chosen certain things to be inevitable to control and change in the past, but at the same time a determined one.
In all circumstances of any kind, Asako wants to handle her troubles and work alone. She feels that the only way for her to know for certain if something will get done right is if she sees for herself. Other people to her are completely unpredictable and can change almost instantly, so Asako wants herself to be someone she knows well enough and have the ability to depend on. However, she secretly longs to have a relationship with someone she can depend on and trust. She does want to go on and live by herself, but Asako can't help but yearn to be with that type of person that she hopes to find one day. Someone who she can't find any reason to not trust or that has no intention to do anything bad to her, but wants to be with her when she needs someone. Asako resents this part of her that wants help from a "fantasy," rather than hoping more to find a way to have herself have the ability to help herself. She feels that she can't help it, though.
Asako doesn't care much about strangers unless they're the subjects of her daydreams or curiousity. (She does tend to stay around those type of strangers, but only for what they have that interests her. Other than that, she doesn't care.) To Asako, her existance comes first before another human being she doesn't have any good ties to no matter how young or important they may be. The situation changes if the person is a friend of hers or any other sort of good ally. Asako will try to save the other person as well as herself. These types of people are the kind that make her feel remorseful if she doesn't treat them well or aid them in a time of need. If her friends were to become hurt or dead because of her, she wouldn't be able to cope with it well. Asako's concern for her friends can be dangerous at times because she wants to solve their problems without them getting involved anymore. (Not every day life problems, but the type of problems with someone's threatened.) She'll become quickly dominating towards what ever trouble they get themselves into. The people that may not like what's Asako would be doing and trying to stop her might find themselves having her attempt to lock them inside their own houses, knocked out, or anything else that would let her deal with their issues. Asako thinks she's "protecting them from doing something stupid" and doesn't take note that this may leave the person in a vulnerable state or that they know more about what they got themselves into than her. Besides that, Asako does whatever she can to help the people she's close to.
However, there's a difference between her actual yet few friends and people that appear to be her friends. People that appear to be her friends are people that she's more cautious around and are there rather to give her something to do with rather than an actual affection filled relationship of mutualism. With the few individuals she likes, Asako tells them everything. She doesn't suspect them of anything at all and tends to stick with them as long as she can. Around them, she tries to act motherly towards them.
Self interest is Asako's main motivation in life. She acts more sincere to people she has good relations with, but that's because she benefits from the existance of the relationship. Mutualism of relationships in itself isn't selfish since it's two sides contributing to each other, but Asako thinks of how she gains from those types of bonds in a different way. Asako believes if she has this kind of relationship that it'll have the type of feelings to accompany with it that will cause herself to feel remorse. That feeling of remorse makes the only difference between strangers and friends for her. She uses that remorse to keep herself in line in the place of a permanent moral guideline. Asako figures that if she does anything to her friends that hurt them, she finds it hard to function normally due to guilt causing her emotional pain. From what she's seen from the world, enough emotional pain can cause death in certain circumstances. She's aware death is inevitable no matter what the conditions for anyone's lives may be at any situation, but Asako specifically doesn't want to die in a state that she finds herself thinking there isn't any options when there really are or doing an act she may regret later. If there's one thing she hates more than anything, it's causing something she can't change that she wants to. Other than that, how she mostly lives is based on what she's feeling and thinks is the most benefiting choice at the moment.
Likes:
Garden Gnomes: Asako thinks they're the most adorable littlest figurines ever. When she was younger, she used to find a whole bunch of them in the attic and play with them.
Cryptogramic Blood: Once upon a time, Asako was bored on a weekend. She decided to mix soda, orange juice, cinnamon, olive oil, a pinch of salt, and water that was boiled from a fish together and drink it. Oddly, she found it the most tastiest drink she ever had and came up with some random name for it.
Writing: When writing, she writes about everything. The things she doesn't want anyone else to know has a random metaphor or other word to disguise it. (Example: If Asako wants to hide the word "money," she'll use another word that makes her think of money, like trees. Trees create paper that can make currency.) Its a nice way of expressing herself.
Sleeping: Its so refreshing and relaxing for her. Unfortunatly, Asako doesn't care where she falls asleep. When she wakes up after falling asleep in a public place, she finds herself in a different place. Who caused this are usually some people that know her well and want to play a prank on her.
Shooting Ranges: They allow her to do one of her most favorite activities in the world: shooting.
Dislikes:
Fighting: To Asako, fighting takes up too much time that she could be doing something else. Its hard for her to leave them too.
Torture: She never experienced torture before, but it sounds dreadful to her. Long and tedious pain that adds up to even more pain that could make someone do stuff they don't want to do frightens her.
Unicorns: They just seem ugly to her. Just the way the horn looks so unnatural on a animal that smells weird to her is repulsive to Asako.
Being Lonely: Asako likes to have other people around her, despite wanting to be self dependent. She thinks that when she's alone, something bad might happen to her when she least expects it. Its scary to her.
Nightmares: Just the fact that they seem so real at first and seem so horrible. She happens to have a lot of nightmares, though.
Strengths:
Stealth: One of her abilities that came in early in her life. It simply helped her get to places she wanted to go that others wouldn't allow her to go, so Asako practiced stealth. This comes in handy for her today just in case she feels curious about people that don't want her around or if she's interested in a place with a "KEEP OUT" sign.
Speed: Description mixes in with the Stealth one, except it just helps aid her stealth.
Guns: Guntypes she specializes in are pistols and rifles. Her skill developed in her childhood and practicing in shooting ranges starting when she turned eighteen. It helps that she thinks the shooting is fun due to the adrenaline feeling she gets from it. There's also the fact that its like a really fun game to her.
Improvisation: Something that always stuck with her since she use to practice it all the time with her mother for law. Now that Asako has no interest in law, she uses it for other purposes.
Weaknesses:
Completely Attatched to Those Close to Her: Its hard for Asako to completely trust people, but its not completely impossible. To obtain it from her, she has to know the person for a long time or they would have to say or due certain things that get her closer to them or increase her security with them. (A good example is a person telling her everything about them and confirming it.) Trust is all it takes for Asako to care and get attatched to someone since she wants to have complete stable belief in people. Once she forms that bound, she helps that person in every wayway she can just to keep them around her no matter what. What horrible things they might do is nothing to her as long as it doesn't go against her. If this individual goes against her and breaks this connection or misuses her trust, Asako will become vengeful towards this person for some time. That vengefullness later turns into her just ignoring this person completely as if they didn't exist at all.
Tries to do Everything by Herself: Wanting to prevent having any strings attatched or dealing with other undependable factors, she believes that doing things by herself is the most reliable way to do things.
Believes in Herself More than Others: Asako doesn't trust other people unless she has seen part of what they're telling to her in person. She feels that she has to confirm everything herself before actually listening to them. For example, if someone were to say, "Watch out for that dangerous man," she would not believe them until she experienced this man's dangerous elements herself.
Fights with no Weapons Involved: With guns and explosives, she can fight easily. With anything like a close range weapon she doesn't have mastered, she can use in a okay manner but not as good as explosives or guns. Without any weapons, her aim become's clumsy and the blows she delivers aren't harmful at all. She has no idea or any knowledge on the subject whatsoever.
Far-Sighted: Asako has glasses that help her see normally, but once she loses them everything close to her becomes blurry.
Fire: Right when fire shows up, Asako does her best to stay away from it and get away fast.
Head-Canon Notes:
-She's more afraid of words and actions than appearences. Asako can come up to anything that's usually considered dangerous or scary to the average person, but she'll linger around until they say or do something to her that she doesn't like. She sticks to the phrase "until its proven otherwise, the defendant is not guilty."
-When speaking Italian, she can use it fluently without any pauses. With Japanese, Asako's only mostly fluent with a few pauses and mistakes here and there, but can almost use it like a normal Japanese citizen. Her accent resembles the avaerage Japanese person. If someone listening to her talk concentrates on what she says though, they can hear a small hint of an Italian accent.
-Asako is a Pyrophobic. Right when she sees the image of fire, dhe will flee the scene. She happens to have nightmares of being burned alive a lot.
-Asako is a Senior in high school that attends Raira Academy
-Her sexual orientation is pansexual. She doesn't seem to recognize gender, but rather what the individual is like and her extent of trust with them.
History:
Before her name was changed to Asako Kojima, Asako was first born as Vera Marciano in Naples, Italy. Her father was a policeman and her mother was a lawyer. Both were overprotective and over emotional people in their late twenties as well as extremists that were new to their jobs and a bit naive. They all lived in a small house near the center of the city. Vera's parents were away doing work most of the time, so they would always hire a babysitter to look after her. During her first years, Vera was absolutely amazed by everything the world around her had. It was a dirty place, but somehow beautiful at the same time. From the unique areas that surrounded her to the people, Vera interacted with her environment and had fun everyday. She would constantly run off from her babysitter's supervision to go walk around Naples to explore. Vera was always tooken to the police when people noticed her parents weren't nearby. This caused her parents to have someone constantly look after her, ending her fun for awhile. She couldn't stand a supervisor constantly looking at her and telling her what she could and can't do anymore, so she began to sneak out of her house.
Vera found the night to be completely different from the Naples she knew from the day time. It was way more scarier with the big men with guns and cars that appeared to follow her until she somehow lost them, but it was more thrilling than it was during the day. To Vera, the darkness had a more "adventure" feel to it. She was just getting use to it all just the first time until she felt someone sweep her away. Vera was taken away and kept in a dark room until she heard police sirens. The police had rescued from whoever had captured her, but her parents where fuming once she saw them again. Both of them started to go off about how Naples had dangerous people within it. They said there were all kinds of bad people that would go after her like mafias, robbers, etc. After being intimidated by her parents' angry speech, her mother finally concluded with that Vera was going to start school soon so there wouldn't be time left for her usual activities.
School left Vera frustrated ever since it began. The instructors were kind to her, but she resented how she couldn't do certain things. Somehow between lessons, Vera managed to get herself in a group of friends that helped eased her frustration. Her everyday life started to revolve around three things: school, friends, and staying inside her house. Vera gave up trying to go off by herself, so she decided to think of the things she already knew from her life. She thought about everything that ever happened to her and what she thought of it until she became bored with that too. Vera then had an idea of making up an imaginary world in her head to entertain herself. She tried to put in as many ideas as she can into it so there would be a place she could explore without getting into trouble. Vera told her other friends about it and would play along with Vera's idea. They themselves would add more ideas to it and daydreamed about it all day. This "world" Vera came up with was the most funnest "toy" they ever played with.
A few years later when Vera turned eight, her father died in a gunfight. This event caused Vera to start using her pretend world as a coping device for not only her father's death, but anything else that happened to her. She took great comfort in the fact that there was a place that she could control what was going around her. Vera appeared odd to others due to still acting like nothing happened during her father's funeral. Her mother was hit hard by his death, but she still seemed stable at the time to go on. The night her father died, Vera began to stop daydreaming and actually consider her father's death. At the time, it did reach to her head. She use to think her father was invincible for taking a dangerous job like that. Vera slowly became terrified to be shot like him by criminals. She begun to think that if she was better at shooting than whoever killed her dad, Vera wouldn't have to fear them since they would fear her if she became better than them. In a trance like state, she went to the closet that had her dad's guns. She took the lightest one and started shooting at objects around the house for target practice.
Her mother woke up to the side and rushed to stop who it was. When she caught Vera with it, she told her as calmly as she could to drop it. Vera pointed the gun at her mother, accusing her of trying to hurt her if she was trying to get her to drop what she thought was going to protect her. Vera's mother said she would take the place of that gun to protect her, making Vera drop the gun and regret what she did. After that incident, Vera placed a large amount of trust and dependance on her mother. If her mother was her protector, she wanted to become exactly like this protector to increase her security. In Vera's head, criminals were people that ruined everybody's life and were the most greatest evil ever. They were the reason why she couldn't go around the city as she pleased, she thought. All of these types of thoughts influenced her to work as a lawyer when she grew up like her mother. Vera couldn't help but smile at the thought of how one day she might be the part of the final step of sending criminals away permanantly back then.
While asking her mother to teach her how to be one, she seemed proud to do so. Starting right after Vera asked the question, they both went through different types of exersizes that Vera's mom made up to prepare her. They did things like time how long she was able to come up with some sort of theory. Due to this, she was able to come up with things that the average person would need weeks to decide on faster. Vera began to study more and practiced maintaining good etiquette to please her mother so she would be more attatched to Vera. All of her friends stopped talking to her when she started to change what she did with her time. It was starting to make her feel lonely because she wasn't going outside as much as she used to and that she lost all of her friends. As long as she was gaining more approval of her "protector though," it didn't matter to her. If she got too lonely or bored, she ccould just think of her imaginary place.
A Japanese man named Jun Kojima and his daughter that was Vera's age named Asako Kojima started to come over to their house after awhile and eventually got the permission to live there from Vera's mother. The Kojima family had a family tradition of sending their children to study abroad in Italy that came from one of their anscestors visiting Italy for vocations. During Jun Kojima's year abroad, that was when he supposedly met Vera's mother and befirended her. He got the news the her husband died, so he came over to help his old friend out. Vera's mother allowed them to move in as well. Vera instantly took this as some kind of threat and thought that the Kojimas would take her protector away. After all, her mother spent more and more time with Jun Kojima. Vera grew to like Asako, however. Asako was a nice person, but extreemly quiet even if she knew Italian well for her age. Both of the girls became friends despite Vera feeling some suspiscion towards the Kojimas and Asako being silent. They had one thing in common though, and it was the fact that their parents started to spent more time together than with the two girls. Over time, both of them decided that it might have been okay because they thought the two might be dating, then get married, and become step siblings.
Vera got use to their presence after awhile, but noticed a change in her mother's behavior when she became ten years old. Every time someone said her name, she seemed to be startled easily. She didn't want anyone to touch her in any way whatsoever. (When they did, she would attack them and panic. Even when Vera would hug her or if Jun gave her a pat on the back like he did here and there, she would scream and start hitting one of them until someone pulled her away and calmed her down.) Everyone was scared of how violent Vera's mother got. She started hitting anyone and anything. When she wasn't, she stared into space with a look of complete shock. Vera tried comforting Asako during this time since she appeared frightened. She also tried to convince Jun to go back to Japan with Asako and got his reply of him being angry and saying how he'll never abandon her mother. He still liked Asako, but Vera could never figure out why he would put her in such harm's way.
No matter what though, Vera refused to believe her protecter would go against her own family and friends. Even though she's violent; my newest friend Asako and I are alive and untouched by criminals, Vera told herself, everything should still be alright. Vera couldn't help but feel afraid of her mother at the same time, though. She also thought that the efforts she made to impress her mother would be enough too, so she tried even harder. After that, nobody saw her anymore save for in school. Vera felt herself starting to feel resentful towards what she was studying and began to hate it. Her mother became irrational and even more violent, so she stopped what she was doing and begun to interact more than ever with Asako. Both of them started to run out of the house more and attempted to run away once, but were brought back home wiht Vera's mother waiting for them. In those situations, Vera was the one always being reluctant to do so since she still believed in her mother and only went since she didn't want to lose her last friend.
Asako decided to one day try to figure out what was wrong with Vera's mother, so she started to follow her. The next day, Asako went to Vera and told her how she followed Vera's mother outside at midnight. She discovered that her mother met up with a group of mysterious men every night and took some money from them. These people would help aid her in court as long as she defended them from the law in return. If she ever revealed any of their secrets though, they would release what her mother was doing and would lose her job and kill Vera. She heard that they were a criminal organization slowly rising and that they were the same people that killed Vera's dad. It seemed that they themselves didn't tell her mother until right before her violent nature began. Vera's mother was paying them for evidence in court rooms, thinking that they were a "different" type of criminals, but she was apparently fooled. Asako also assumed based on the information she got that Vera's mother may be currently shocked and confused at the moment about what she's really doing with her life and started taking her feelings out on everyone. Vera got mad at Asako and called her a lyer. She accused Asako of trying to steal her mother away to be her protection by convincing Vera her mother was supporting a dangerous group that her mother would even allow to know about her daughter's existance. However, Vera was intimidated by this and didn't want to believe it at all.
So she tried to slip back into her imaginary world, but had a hard time doing so. Vera and Asako were getting more of Vera's mother's wrath and Jun seemed to be gone more. Vera found herself getting confused with reality and imagination when she tried to escape reality more. She was scared that she couldnt tell which was which anymore. She kept imagining a happy Asako with no bruises and her mother being sane and Jun always there for eveyone. Vera eventually grew upset that the things she imagined weren't real, but still foolishly believed them. One thing that almost pulled her back into reality was that Asako was passing by her mother in the kitchen. Only this seemed enough to trigger her temper and attack Asako by trying to strangle her. Without thinking, Vera somehow managed to get one of the kitchen knives and stab her mother in the back. She stared at the sight in shock for awhile while Asako ran off. Vera started to panic and apologize to her mom, but that was when reality really hit her. She started to recall Asako's damaged body, how Jun was only seen for short amounts of time, and how she didn't understand her mother's insanity. There were feelings of anger towards her mother that Vera started to slowly feel grow right at that moment.
Those feelings resurfaced and came in the form of Vera starteing to rapidly stab her mother, accusing her of betraying her. Asako seemed to have called the police since they barged in through the house. Vera stayed in custody away from her mother. Asako was the only one that visited her. Other than her, Vera's mother or Jun were no where in sight. Later on, Vera was sent to a mental treatment center for children (the place was supposedly a community mental health service since Italy had deinstitutionalization.) Her mother was sentenced to prison for twenty years for attempted manslaughter towards Asako and had Jun agree to be Vera's stepfather after Vera's mother left the hospital.
During her stay at the mental center, she started to hear rumors about the place from other children visiting there. The main one was that the place was commiting fraud by having the children stay for more time than they need to stay there. People running the center would lie about the childrens' conditions to keep them there longer. Of course, they were eventually let out so they wouldn't look suspicious. Vera stayed in isolation at the center for awhile. She refused therapy or anyone else's company for several days. All that she did in those days was think without moving at all. She couldn't understand her mother's motivations or what was really going on around her. Vera began to put the blame on what was happening in her life on criminals. Her simple dislike of them for ruining her "fun" in the past turned more repulsive as she thought about them longer. The knife she stabbed her mother with came into her mind, but she started not to feel guilty about it. Instead, Vera thought that anyone doing anything she considered bad deserved any type of punishment. What she kept feeling was vengence, but thought of it as a growing need for justice instead. From events like her mother starting to act weird and her father's death, she blamed it all around crime.
Vera came up with the idea that she could get rid of this thing she resented by killing criminals. She didn't see anything wrong with it at the time. They always appeared as nondesirables to her when she talked to other people, so she felt even more justified when she set what she was going to do in mind. In her mind, Vera started to imagine the world without crime and wanted to make it a reality since authentic things only seemed to be more pleasing to her than daydreaming at the time. After awhile, Vera came out to therapy and pretended to act like she was okay. At the time she turned nine, she managed to trick the staff by acting sane and was released from the mental center. When she returned home, everything seemed to be getting better. Jun was trying to reconcile with his daughter while Asako finished her therapy sessions away from Vera. Asako was frightened by Vera's presence when she came back. That night, Vera managed to pick lock the closet door and get her father's gun. She could remember how holding and using a gun felt, especially how hard it was to hold and aim properly. However, Vera saw it as something she could be secured by once she mastered it.
She started using an airsoft gun as target practice that she managed to steal from a stranger's shed. After awhile, Vera started to sneak out of the house to go outside. The girl would hide in the shadows in alleys until someone that resembled the people she saw online as wanted to shoot down. It didn't matter if the person only didn't have much resemblance, she would shoot them down anyway. This ended up with people who probably didn't do anything wrong being shot down. Vera ran off everytime before anyone could see her. She found shooting people was like a really fun game until she saw the victims' bullet wounds. The look on their faces made her especially sick. Vera tried to make small jokes about their state to herself to make herself feel better. Eventually, she found herself taking in her victims' pain in a new positive light. Shooting down people soon became a light hearted past time for her. In the mist of all of her fun, she still called it justice. Vera didn't want to admit that her reason for shooting people down was just for the fun of it. After awhile, Vera developed ways to sneak around her victims and shoot them with close accuracy.
One day, however, she made a horrible mistake. Vera saw a small energetic girl run past her one day. She thought it would be fun to try to shoot her down when she saw how fast the girl ran. She didn't even think of any consequences at the time that she did it. Two days later, someone managed to sneak up on her and knock her out. When Vera regained consciousness, she found herself in a dark room. A horrible smell mixed with gasoline surrounded her. Feeling her way through the dark, Vera discovered the entire room was wet with gasoline and locked. A young man's voice said that if she wanted to go outside alive, she would have to talk to him until he said it was okay to go. Vera decided to agree with this, but would try to unlock the door at the same time.
He asked her why she was going around shooting people. Vera automatically answered it was for justice, but he instantly interrupted her and said it was for herself. She became defensive and told this man that criminals were continuing activities unnoticed and no one was stopping them. Vera also started to tell the other of certain events that wouldn't happen if it weren't for them. To that, he replied that whatever happened was more of her parents' fault. That they were the ones that had to deal with the consequences of their actions. They were reckless in the way they tried to carry out their goals and didn't think what could possibly happen. Not to mention they acted one their own accounts without thinking of anyone else but their own goals. The man asked her other things like what was justice to her and why she must have it. Without thinking, Vera truthfully told him that it was so she could be happy and have fun.
This answer seemed to get a sickening laugh from the other being in the room. Said being started to insult her on how sad it was that a nine year old uses an excuse like justice for their wrong doings. That it wasn't justice at all since she was no different than someone shooting illegally. He added that she was a monster compared to the so called criminals since he had heard much better reasons for what they do than her. Lastly, he finished off with saying that justice was useless in the first place due to actions being nonreversable. Actions were just an addition to another person's being that could never be taken away with treatment or prison that people have to live with. To the addition of his last words, he also said that actions were just the same, the only difference was how people took them in. Vera became curious enough to stop trying to get the door open and listen. She started to ask him to tell her more due to her intigueness, but he didn't say anything else but, "That won't matter anymore for me or you since the only thing that could keep me alive is seeing you dead. Now that I plan to take you down, there's nothing left anymore. After all, my kid can't function anymore thanks to you." Suddenly, a match was lit and thrown on the room. The flames revealed the little girl Vera shot with a bullet hole on her head.
Fire soon covered the entire area, followed by Vera passing out some time later. Not before she could feel herself burning when everything was set aflame. When Vera woke up, she was in the hospital with Asako next to her. She said to Vera she just happened to be "just passing by" the area and saw the fire, so she called 911. Has she been watching me, Vera thought angerly, why didn't she stop me? She than realized how that really didn't matter. After all, she did save her life. Right there, Vera realized how she had done a horrible thing. It disturbed her knowing that she didn't regret doing it, but rather enjoyed it until the fire. This event caused her to think about her actions more. Afterwards, Vera's sadistic urges became weaker each day. She still found shooting fun but didn't want to get into any trouble, so she planned to use shooting ranges when she got older so she could prevent any misfortune in the future with anyone. Vera thought that what the man said when he was alive made sense, so she soon adapted that way of thinking. She felt more honest and at ease with herself when she recognized how she used criminals as scapegoats and how certain things were her fault.
Vera and Asako somehow became friends again after two years later of avoiding each other. Everything seemed to be going well for awhile until Vera lashed out at Asako when she thought the other stole all of her money. Asako vanished the next day. The following two years was spent looking for the missing girl, but no one could find her. Matters didn't get any better when police found skeleton remains that were found to be someone that's been dead for two years. No one could identify who it was. The only clues given from the details of it all made it sound like the corpse belonged to Asako. After that, Jun had given up completely, but Vera still thought Asako was alive and couldn't believe that the other girl was dead. Vera was shocked when he told her that her name would be Asako Kojima from now on some time later. It seemed he somehow legally changed her name behind her back. The man was now trying to replace his real daughter with her. Both of them moved back to Japan when she was thirteen years old. Everytime she mentioned Asako, he would say that it was Vera that went missing, not Asako. Vera, now called Asako, was having a hard time with the Japanese language and dealing with the guilt of causing the real Asako to run off. She was aware the girl was afraid of her and still had her temper get out of hand. Now it was her fault that she was staying up studying Japanese, she thought.
School was the worse for her. She never felt so pressured in her life to do so many complicated things with a language she barely knew about and could barely communicate with anyone. Asako fell asleep several times due to staying up so long. Eventually, Asako somehow managed to befriend a girl named Kazue Yuu. Kazue helped Asako with Japanese and invited her to go places with her. Asako realized she knew absolutely nothing about this girl or her life, but trusted her anyway. At the time she believed that personal details didn't matter at the time. Everything was going so well when they were together to her. A year later, Kazue and Asako met up somewhere like they usually did. Kazue was crying while she asked Asako if she would run away with her. Asako didn't take her seriously and thought of running away was a fun idea at the time, so she decided to go along with it. However, she planned to come back after a few days. Together, they started to start running around some close by towns. A few days later, the police found them. Some time later after Asako returned home, she found out that Kazue was arrested for something, but no one would tell her what for.
After the incident, she didn't want to assocciate with people around her and started to go on online chatrooms. Asako made sadistic repetitive comments while chatting, which scared people away. She thought it didn't matter since she thought she would never meet them in real life. It was starting to get boring until someone took interest in what she was saying. Before Asako knew it, she was telling whoever it was everything about her. The other person just seemed as friendly as can be while behaving like they were concerned about her. This person told her how she should be more careful and such while chatting online. In return, she still continued her online behavior since Asako was use to chatting like it, so it just seemed normal. Asako felt like she could trust this person after awhile since he didn't seem to be bothered by her strange behavior. Everything seemed to be okay again until Asako got some odd mail two years later. It contained death threats, someone asking her to kill someone with the picture of the person, and others saying that they knew what really happened to a man named Tetsuo Yuu. All of this confused and intimidated her at the same time.
Every time the mail came, Asako threw it out as fast as she could. It seemed all like a prank until phone calls about the same thing happened. There was a certain phone call with a person with a similar voice that kept talking about everything in a vague manner. Asako learned that the caller was the original Asako saying that she was in trouble. Asako started to say how she was sorry to the other one for causing her to run away and to come back home. The real one refused the offer. Original Asako started to explain how she thought it was going to be the end for her since "she would be found out sooner or later." As the discussion went by, Asako figured out that the letters were meant to be directed towards the real Asako, not her. The real Asako seemed to be afraid for her life, saying that people that were trying to find her seemed to give up. Asako started to try and convince her to come back home, but hung up once she mentioned that.
From then on, Asako decided that she would try to distract people that were after the real Asako by claiming that she actually is the real one. Of course, she didn't kill anyone that the letters told her to kill. She just made herself look like she quit whatever the real Asako use to do with these people. It seemed all kinds of people wanted revenge against the real Asako and mistooken her for her due to the name change. It seemed all they found out was a name, but no appearance. Asako realized that the real Asako got in "trouble" in Japan too since Asako founded herself targeted at times. People still had grudges that would only end if they could only kill "Asako."Once they saw her, Asako's appearance gave them an idea and assured them that her image was that of whoever they were going after. Lots of people begun to find out where she was. Asako started to fear for her life, but didn't want to give up for what she thought what was making up for what she did to a childhood friend. There wasn't anyone else Asako knew that lived away from her that would let her live with them and Jun didn't want to move or let her get away from him. When Asako asked the person who always talked to her only, they said that they lived in Ikebukuro.
Seeing that as a far away place Asako could go to, she started to ask if she could live with this person without another thought. The other being seemed shocked at this, saying that he didn't know her in real life and that it was too reckless of a decision. Asako began to realize how silly it was to ask someone she hardly knew to live with them. Next time she went online, her friend seemed to change their mind. For the first time, this person said their name was Nori Ito and that she was "a man trapped in a woman's body." "You can come over as long as you clean the house and do errands for me~," Nori typed in the chat box. Happy to find a place to escape to, Asako went away to meet with this person in the middle of the night. She met up with a female crossdresser in her early twenties that said she was Nori. (Asako confirmed this by the picture the woman gave her in a email.)
Asako was first nervous at first. After awhile, she eventually got comfortable living in Nori's apartment. She couldn't help but feel glad she took a chance and decided to trust this woman. Let's just say this trust of her's for Nori started to "rust" after awhile. Cleaning chores were normal. It was the errands Asako felt uncomfortable about. First, there was a bunch of random objects that Asako was sent to by. She decided to research them and found an article about those same objects making a type of acid at a bookstore Nori liked to visit. The tons of scented air fresheners confused her as well. At times, Nori would kick her out for several days. During those times, Nori gave her money to stay at some hotel. When Asako was allowed back in, the house had a very strong smell of air fresheners that would make her feel dizzy. Asako started to wonder what was going on while she was gone, so she tricked Nori once into believing she left completely. She did leave, but broke into the apartment later. During that time, Asako smelled one of the most horrible smells she ever smelled. It was hard for her to describe, but it was similar to the scent she smelled back in Italy when she was in the fire. One other thing was that the only person Nori would talk to was Asako. Nori would constantly ask Asako the names of anyone she was in contact with lately. It was more strange behavior Asako could never figure out.
Asako's investigation couldn't go further due to Nori starting to be more aware of her presence. Nori must have somehow found out and made sure that Asako couldn't go back while she kicked her out. Two years later into the present, both of them have become friends. Nori is the only friend Asako has never trusted. During her 18th birthday, she was given a pistol and rifle to go use at a shooting range by Nori. Her current life isn't exactly peaceful, but its easy to go along with at the moment.
Roleplay Sample:
Lights surrounded the young woman as she stared in a daze at the scenery around her. Children were running around holding noisemakers while their parents ran after them; warning them to be more careful. Street vendors sold odd shaped food to tourists who later cringed after tasting them. Some music played from a radio behind her where some people were dancing around a colored pole. The entire scenery just seemed to sparkle.
And Asako ...
Asako had no idea where she was at the moment. She didn't care, though. Everything seemed to be going down a drain today since her fight with her roommate Nori. Asako just left the house and wandered around for awhile until she reached this place. What is it, exactly, she thought as her head turned around to gaze at what was around her, what's happening? I wonder if I can join in in all of this fun, too, she wondered, but what if its something I'm suppose to be invited in? That thought apparently didn't hold her back as she started to go towards the dancers. Suddenly, a girl was running past her. She tripped over and started to bawl with a noise that felt like it could rip a nearby person's mind.
However, Asako just smiled softly at the scene. How entertaining, she thought, its like a sudden twist to an exciting story! Everything's just wonderful until something horrible starts the climax! Asako could imagine this girl as some sort of heroine against some odd force. Tripping will apparently be the great evil in the land, Asako mused to herself.
"You're ... so funny ... Miss Protagonist. I think ... I'll wait and see what happens." Asako told the little girl as she knelt down next to her. The little girl didn't even notice her; she just kept crying ...
Favourite Pairing:
ShizuoxIzaya
IzayaxKida
ShinraxCelty
... How about just any pairing with two guys?... or two girls ... I don't know ....
Did you read the rules?: The colourless vigilantes ... I want my mommy :< .... or you will just do : D.
I apologize if this is a waste of your time. I'm currently editing this since I think there's something wrong with it, but I can't figure it out. Sometimes I type wacky things I never meant to on accident or put stuff in that makes no sense whatsoever. Oh, by the way, English is my main language. I'm just very bad at it, heh heh ... Sorry. Well, if you can, please help me, viewer! ^^ Thank you!
Name: Asako Kojima (Birth name was Vera Marciano)
Gender: Female
Age: 18
Height: 162 cm
Weight: 56 kg
Appearance:
Asako has light brown hair that reaches four inches beyond her shoulders. It appears to be straight as its texture and zigzagged at the bottom. Her bangs are pushed to the sides with two hair pins at each side except for the center area. They appear to be two separate strand split at the center. She has large hazel eyes that are droppy with glasses in front of them with red ovular shapes. Asako's skin tone is medium. Scars from a fire cover her left cheek, back, stomach, and upper thighs. She uses make up to cover it up, though.
Personality:
Asako has a habit of constantly daydreaming about a large variety of things. It can range from a small detail in the outside world to something that's completely out of the blue. While "in her own little world" it may look like she's not paying attention to her surroundings.What the case really is is that her daydream is more exciting or worth more concern to her than the outside world at the moment, but at the same time she can still be aware of what goes on around her. Her reactions to whatever is interrupting her daydream would always be late due to having herself trying to get more focussed. When she's completely daydreaming, its when Asako's idle or bored. Even when Asako is interacting more with other things, a small part of her subconscious seems to still be in a daydream even though she's trying to focus or do something else that makes her busy since she says or does things considered abnormal or eccentric to most people. Asako's mind has a tendency to wander in her thoughts on the other hand of daydreaming too.
Curiousity is one of Asako's oldest characteristics that hasn't changed much. It went away in certain periods of her life, but it always came back in the same condition as ever. At a young age, she found out that the more she knew about whatever she wanted to know about, the more she would be able to use what it was to it's full potential however she pleases. (If it's a person, it's most likely Asako fears them and wants to end that reason of why she fears them or they helped her in many situations and wants to know what their motives were for.) Asako finds that the more she answers the questions that keep popping in her head once she becomes interested in whatever it is, the less annoyed she gets and the more easier life becomes for her state of mind.
On the outside, Asako appears to be someone with no common sense when it comes to the rules. Asako isn't bothered by anything until she herself has experienced what's causing that feeling. She looks like she's about to fall asleep most of the time due to her eyelids lowering here and there, her slow speech that stops and continues once in awhile, how she has late reactions when someone's trying to get her attention, said reactions sometimes don't fit well with what's going on, her emotions are seen to be subtle as if not much effort is given to express them, and how Asako's movements seem slow. Asako becomes more focussed in conversations that last more than a few minutes. Everything people say she takes seriously no matter what their tone at the time may be. Her behavior seems laid back and blunt towards others, but it's not violent or over emotional. She comes off as insensitive when she says what she thinks out loud since she doesn't see a problem to it. When she's intimidated ,angry, or scared, Asako stays quiet or will do something irrational if under enough pressure.
Part of Asako's mentality differs from her outter personality. Appearing to be somewhat clueless on the outside, Asako actually has a good idea what's going on around her even though she doesn't appear or act like it. She can think of a large amount of thoughts and come up with well developed plans in short amounts of time. There are times when Asako's thinking can't come to any conclusion that she wants to follow or halts, which causes her to instantly freeze up. Her pauses are caused by her trying to remember the proper words to say due to Japanese not being her native language and trying to be cautious of what she says and how she says what she's saying. Asako has a cynical view on humanity, thinking that whatever anyone does is for their own good rather than another. She doesn't think of it as a bad thing but rather a normal human characteric or a survival instinct. That doesn't mean that Asako won't watch herself around others though. It's hard for her to completely trust anyone even when she wants to. Asako can't help but to get nervous and shy away from people when she thinks she might become close to a friend to them or the other way around, even though they may seem harmless. It's easy for her to suspect people when they ask about her personal life since she knows that it's something that can be used against her for future references. Asako believes the only people who should know about her personal life is the people she can completely count on. She's instantly on edge if someone even goes that far to ask and thinks like someone whose paranoid. Asako's rather disconnected from others due to being afraid of befriending others and prefers to stick to already established relationships she has. Asako feels lonely at the same though, so she has mixed feelings on this type of matter. She has a case of shadenfreude, which varies why all of the time. Most of the time, it's because she's glad its not her getting hurt. Even with people Asako's close to, she'll gain some sort of pleasure from their pain. However, she will help those people reluctantly to keep them around. Everyone else is a different story. Asako will gladly express it in words due to not seeing how it will cause much trouble as long as she's not actually doing anything. She's almost oblivious to how wrong saying such things are. Asako doesn't really say anything but smile when it comes to shadenfreude, but will talk about it in places that conceal her identity like chatrooms. Her's is a mindset that has chosen certain things to be inevitable to control and change in the past, but at the same time a determined one.
In all circumstances of any kind, Asako wants to handle her troubles and work alone. She feels that the only way for her to know for certain if something will get done right is if she sees for herself. Other people to her are completely unpredictable and can change almost instantly, so Asako wants herself to be someone she knows well enough and have the ability to depend on. However, she secretly longs to have a relationship with someone she can depend on and trust. She does want to go on and live by herself, but Asako can't help but yearn to be with that type of person that she hopes to find one day. Someone who she can't find any reason to not trust or that has no intention to do anything bad to her, but wants to be with her when she needs someone. Asako resents this part of her that wants help from a "fantasy," rather than hoping more to find a way to have herself have the ability to help herself. She feels that she can't help it, though.
Asako doesn't care much about strangers unless they're the subjects of her daydreams or curiousity. (She does tend to stay around those type of strangers, but only for what they have that interests her. Other than that, she doesn't care.) To Asako, her existance comes first before another human being she doesn't have any good ties to no matter how young or important they may be. The situation changes if the person is a friend of hers or any other sort of good ally. Asako will try to save the other person as well as herself. These types of people are the kind that make her feel remorseful if she doesn't treat them well or aid them in a time of need. If her friends were to become hurt or dead because of her, she wouldn't be able to cope with it well. Asako's concern for her friends can be dangerous at times because she wants to solve their problems without them getting involved anymore. (Not every day life problems, but the type of problems with someone's threatened.) She'll become quickly dominating towards what ever trouble they get themselves into. The people that may not like what's Asako would be doing and trying to stop her might find themselves having her attempt to lock them inside their own houses, knocked out, or anything else that would let her deal with their issues. Asako thinks she's "protecting them from doing something stupid" and doesn't take note that this may leave the person in a vulnerable state or that they know more about what they got themselves into than her. Besides that, Asako does whatever she can to help the people she's close to.
However, there's a difference between her actual yet few friends and people that appear to be her friends. People that appear to be her friends are people that she's more cautious around and are there rather to give her something to do with rather than an actual affection filled relationship of mutualism. With the few individuals she likes, Asako tells them everything. She doesn't suspect them of anything at all and tends to stick with them as long as she can. Around them, she tries to act motherly towards them.
Self interest is Asako's main motivation in life. She acts more sincere to people she has good relations with, but that's because she benefits from the existance of the relationship. Mutualism of relationships in itself isn't selfish since it's two sides contributing to each other, but Asako thinks of how she gains from those types of bonds in a different way. Asako believes if she has this kind of relationship that it'll have the type of feelings to accompany with it that will cause herself to feel remorse. That feeling of remorse makes the only difference between strangers and friends for her. She uses that remorse to keep herself in line in the place of a permanent moral guideline. Asako figures that if she does anything to her friends that hurt them, she finds it hard to function normally due to guilt causing her emotional pain. From what she's seen from the world, enough emotional pain can cause death in certain circumstances. She's aware death is inevitable no matter what the conditions for anyone's lives may be at any situation, but Asako specifically doesn't want to die in a state that she finds herself thinking there isn't any options when there really are or doing an act she may regret later. If there's one thing she hates more than anything, it's causing something she can't change that she wants to. Other than that, how she mostly lives is based on what she's feeling and thinks is the most benefiting choice at the moment.
Likes:
Garden Gnomes: Asako thinks they're the most adorable littlest figurines ever. When she was younger, she used to find a whole bunch of them in the attic and play with them.
Cryptogramic Blood: Once upon a time, Asako was bored on a weekend. She decided to mix soda, orange juice, cinnamon, olive oil, a pinch of salt, and water that was boiled from a fish together and drink it. Oddly, she found it the most tastiest drink she ever had and came up with some random name for it.
Writing: When writing, she writes about everything. The things she doesn't want anyone else to know has a random metaphor or other word to disguise it. (Example: If Asako wants to hide the word "money," she'll use another word that makes her think of money, like trees. Trees create paper that can make currency.) Its a nice way of expressing herself.
Sleeping: Its so refreshing and relaxing for her. Unfortunatly, Asako doesn't care where she falls asleep. When she wakes up after falling asleep in a public place, she finds herself in a different place. Who caused this are usually some people that know her well and want to play a prank on her.
Shooting Ranges: They allow her to do one of her most favorite activities in the world: shooting.
Dislikes:
Fighting: To Asako, fighting takes up too much time that she could be doing something else. Its hard for her to leave them too.
Torture: She never experienced torture before, but it sounds dreadful to her. Long and tedious pain that adds up to even more pain that could make someone do stuff they don't want to do frightens her.
Unicorns: They just seem ugly to her. Just the way the horn looks so unnatural on a animal that smells weird to her is repulsive to Asako.
Being Lonely: Asako likes to have other people around her, despite wanting to be self dependent. She thinks that when she's alone, something bad might happen to her when she least expects it. Its scary to her.
Nightmares: Just the fact that they seem so real at first and seem so horrible. She happens to have a lot of nightmares, though.
Strengths:
Stealth: One of her abilities that came in early in her life. It simply helped her get to places she wanted to go that others wouldn't allow her to go, so Asako practiced stealth. This comes in handy for her today just in case she feels curious about people that don't want her around or if she's interested in a place with a "KEEP OUT" sign.
Speed: Description mixes in with the Stealth one, except it just helps aid her stealth.
Guns: Guntypes she specializes in are pistols and rifles. Her skill developed in her childhood and practicing in shooting ranges starting when she turned eighteen. It helps that she thinks the shooting is fun due to the adrenaline feeling she gets from it. There's also the fact that its like a really fun game to her.
Improvisation: Something that always stuck with her since she use to practice it all the time with her mother for law. Now that Asako has no interest in law, she uses it for other purposes.
Weaknesses:
Completely Attatched to Those Close to Her: Its hard for Asako to completely trust people, but its not completely impossible. To obtain it from her, she has to know the person for a long time or they would have to say or due certain things that get her closer to them or increase her security with them. (A good example is a person telling her everything about them and confirming it.) Trust is all it takes for Asako to care and get attatched to someone since she wants to have complete stable belief in people. Once she forms that bound, she helps that person in every wayway she can just to keep them around her no matter what. What horrible things they might do is nothing to her as long as it doesn't go against her. If this individual goes against her and breaks this connection or misuses her trust, Asako will become vengeful towards this person for some time. That vengefullness later turns into her just ignoring this person completely as if they didn't exist at all.
Tries to do Everything by Herself: Wanting to prevent having any strings attatched or dealing with other undependable factors, she believes that doing things by herself is the most reliable way to do things.
Believes in Herself More than Others: Asako doesn't trust other people unless she has seen part of what they're telling to her in person. She feels that she has to confirm everything herself before actually listening to them. For example, if someone were to say, "Watch out for that dangerous man," she would not believe them until she experienced this man's dangerous elements herself.
Fights with no Weapons Involved: With guns and explosives, she can fight easily. With anything like a close range weapon she doesn't have mastered, she can use in a okay manner but not as good as explosives or guns. Without any weapons, her aim become's clumsy and the blows she delivers aren't harmful at all. She has no idea or any knowledge on the subject whatsoever.
Far-Sighted: Asako has glasses that help her see normally, but once she loses them everything close to her becomes blurry.
Fire: Right when fire shows up, Asako does her best to stay away from it and get away fast.
Head-Canon Notes:
-She's more afraid of words and actions than appearences. Asako can come up to anything that's usually considered dangerous or scary to the average person, but she'll linger around until they say or do something to her that she doesn't like. She sticks to the phrase "until its proven otherwise, the defendant is not guilty."
-When speaking Italian, she can use it fluently without any pauses. With Japanese, Asako's only mostly fluent with a few pauses and mistakes here and there, but can almost use it like a normal Japanese citizen. Her accent resembles the avaerage Japanese person. If someone listening to her talk concentrates on what she says though, they can hear a small hint of an Italian accent.
-Asako is a Pyrophobic. Right when she sees the image of fire, dhe will flee the scene. She happens to have nightmares of being burned alive a lot.
-Asako is a Senior in high school that attends Raira Academy
-Her sexual orientation is pansexual. She doesn't seem to recognize gender, but rather what the individual is like and her extent of trust with them.
History:
Before her name was changed to Asako Kojima, Asako was first born as Vera Marciano in Naples, Italy. Her father was a policeman and her mother was a lawyer. Both were overprotective and over emotional people in their late twenties as well as extremists that were new to their jobs and a bit naive. They all lived in a small house near the center of the city. Vera's parents were away doing work most of the time, so they would always hire a babysitter to look after her. During her first years, Vera was absolutely amazed by everything the world around her had. It was a dirty place, but somehow beautiful at the same time. From the unique areas that surrounded her to the people, Vera interacted with her environment and had fun everyday. She would constantly run off from her babysitter's supervision to go walk around Naples to explore. Vera was always tooken to the police when people noticed her parents weren't nearby. This caused her parents to have someone constantly look after her, ending her fun for awhile. She couldn't stand a supervisor constantly looking at her and telling her what she could and can't do anymore, so she began to sneak out of her house.
Vera found the night to be completely different from the Naples she knew from the day time. It was way more scarier with the big men with guns and cars that appeared to follow her until she somehow lost them, but it was more thrilling than it was during the day. To Vera, the darkness had a more "adventure" feel to it. She was just getting use to it all just the first time until she felt someone sweep her away. Vera was taken away and kept in a dark room until she heard police sirens. The police had rescued from whoever had captured her, but her parents where fuming once she saw them again. Both of them started to go off about how Naples had dangerous people within it. They said there were all kinds of bad people that would go after her like mafias, robbers, etc. After being intimidated by her parents' angry speech, her mother finally concluded with that Vera was going to start school soon so there wouldn't be time left for her usual activities.
School left Vera frustrated ever since it began. The instructors were kind to her, but she resented how she couldn't do certain things. Somehow between lessons, Vera managed to get herself in a group of friends that helped eased her frustration. Her everyday life started to revolve around three things: school, friends, and staying inside her house. Vera gave up trying to go off by herself, so she decided to think of the things she already knew from her life. She thought about everything that ever happened to her and what she thought of it until she became bored with that too. Vera then had an idea of making up an imaginary world in her head to entertain herself. She tried to put in as many ideas as she can into it so there would be a place she could explore without getting into trouble. Vera told her other friends about it and would play along with Vera's idea. They themselves would add more ideas to it and daydreamed about it all day. This "world" Vera came up with was the most funnest "toy" they ever played with.
A few years later when Vera turned eight, her father died in a gunfight. This event caused Vera to start using her pretend world as a coping device for not only her father's death, but anything else that happened to her. She took great comfort in the fact that there was a place that she could control what was going around her. Vera appeared odd to others due to still acting like nothing happened during her father's funeral. Her mother was hit hard by his death, but she still seemed stable at the time to go on. The night her father died, Vera began to stop daydreaming and actually consider her father's death. At the time, it did reach to her head. She use to think her father was invincible for taking a dangerous job like that. Vera slowly became terrified to be shot like him by criminals. She begun to think that if she was better at shooting than whoever killed her dad, Vera wouldn't have to fear them since they would fear her if she became better than them. In a trance like state, she went to the closet that had her dad's guns. She took the lightest one and started shooting at objects around the house for target practice.
Her mother woke up to the side and rushed to stop who it was. When she caught Vera with it, she told her as calmly as she could to drop it. Vera pointed the gun at her mother, accusing her of trying to hurt her if she was trying to get her to drop what she thought was going to protect her. Vera's mother said she would take the place of that gun to protect her, making Vera drop the gun and regret what she did. After that incident, Vera placed a large amount of trust and dependance on her mother. If her mother was her protector, she wanted to become exactly like this protector to increase her security. In Vera's head, criminals were people that ruined everybody's life and were the most greatest evil ever. They were the reason why she couldn't go around the city as she pleased, she thought. All of these types of thoughts influenced her to work as a lawyer when she grew up like her mother. Vera couldn't help but smile at the thought of how one day she might be the part of the final step of sending criminals away permanantly back then.
While asking her mother to teach her how to be one, she seemed proud to do so. Starting right after Vera asked the question, they both went through different types of exersizes that Vera's mom made up to prepare her. They did things like time how long she was able to come up with some sort of theory. Due to this, she was able to come up with things that the average person would need weeks to decide on faster. Vera began to study more and practiced maintaining good etiquette to please her mother so she would be more attatched to Vera. All of her friends stopped talking to her when she started to change what she did with her time. It was starting to make her feel lonely because she wasn't going outside as much as she used to and that she lost all of her friends. As long as she was gaining more approval of her "protector though," it didn't matter to her. If she got too lonely or bored, she ccould just think of her imaginary place.
A Japanese man named Jun Kojima and his daughter that was Vera's age named Asako Kojima started to come over to their house after awhile and eventually got the permission to live there from Vera's mother. The Kojima family had a family tradition of sending their children to study abroad in Italy that came from one of their anscestors visiting Italy for vocations. During Jun Kojima's year abroad, that was when he supposedly met Vera's mother and befirended her. He got the news the her husband died, so he came over to help his old friend out. Vera's mother allowed them to move in as well. Vera instantly took this as some kind of threat and thought that the Kojimas would take her protector away. After all, her mother spent more and more time with Jun Kojima. Vera grew to like Asako, however. Asako was a nice person, but extreemly quiet even if she knew Italian well for her age. Both of the girls became friends despite Vera feeling some suspiscion towards the Kojimas and Asako being silent. They had one thing in common though, and it was the fact that their parents started to spent more time together than with the two girls. Over time, both of them decided that it might have been okay because they thought the two might be dating, then get married, and become step siblings.
Vera got use to their presence after awhile, but noticed a change in her mother's behavior when she became ten years old. Every time someone said her name, she seemed to be startled easily. She didn't want anyone to touch her in any way whatsoever. (When they did, she would attack them and panic. Even when Vera would hug her or if Jun gave her a pat on the back like he did here and there, she would scream and start hitting one of them until someone pulled her away and calmed her down.) Everyone was scared of how violent Vera's mother got. She started hitting anyone and anything. When she wasn't, she stared into space with a look of complete shock. Vera tried comforting Asako during this time since she appeared frightened. She also tried to convince Jun to go back to Japan with Asako and got his reply of him being angry and saying how he'll never abandon her mother. He still liked Asako, but Vera could never figure out why he would put her in such harm's way.
No matter what though, Vera refused to believe her protecter would go against her own family and friends. Even though she's violent; my newest friend Asako and I are alive and untouched by criminals, Vera told herself, everything should still be alright. Vera couldn't help but feel afraid of her mother at the same time, though. She also thought that the efforts she made to impress her mother would be enough too, so she tried even harder. After that, nobody saw her anymore save for in school. Vera felt herself starting to feel resentful towards what she was studying and began to hate it. Her mother became irrational and even more violent, so she stopped what she was doing and begun to interact more than ever with Asako. Both of them started to run out of the house more and attempted to run away once, but were brought back home wiht Vera's mother waiting for them. In those situations, Vera was the one always being reluctant to do so since she still believed in her mother and only went since she didn't want to lose her last friend.
Asako decided to one day try to figure out what was wrong with Vera's mother, so she started to follow her. The next day, Asako went to Vera and told her how she followed Vera's mother outside at midnight. She discovered that her mother met up with a group of mysterious men every night and took some money from them. These people would help aid her in court as long as she defended them from the law in return. If she ever revealed any of their secrets though, they would release what her mother was doing and would lose her job and kill Vera. She heard that they were a criminal organization slowly rising and that they were the same people that killed Vera's dad. It seemed that they themselves didn't tell her mother until right before her violent nature began. Vera's mother was paying them for evidence in court rooms, thinking that they were a "different" type of criminals, but she was apparently fooled. Asako also assumed based on the information she got that Vera's mother may be currently shocked and confused at the moment about what she's really doing with her life and started taking her feelings out on everyone. Vera got mad at Asako and called her a lyer. She accused Asako of trying to steal her mother away to be her protection by convincing Vera her mother was supporting a dangerous group that her mother would even allow to know about her daughter's existance. However, Vera was intimidated by this and didn't want to believe it at all.
So she tried to slip back into her imaginary world, but had a hard time doing so. Vera and Asako were getting more of Vera's mother's wrath and Jun seemed to be gone more. Vera found herself getting confused with reality and imagination when she tried to escape reality more. She was scared that she couldnt tell which was which anymore. She kept imagining a happy Asako with no bruises and her mother being sane and Jun always there for eveyone. Vera eventually grew upset that the things she imagined weren't real, but still foolishly believed them. One thing that almost pulled her back into reality was that Asako was passing by her mother in the kitchen. Only this seemed enough to trigger her temper and attack Asako by trying to strangle her. Without thinking, Vera somehow managed to get one of the kitchen knives and stab her mother in the back. She stared at the sight in shock for awhile while Asako ran off. Vera started to panic and apologize to her mom, but that was when reality really hit her. She started to recall Asako's damaged body, how Jun was only seen for short amounts of time, and how she didn't understand her mother's insanity. There were feelings of anger towards her mother that Vera started to slowly feel grow right at that moment.
Those feelings resurfaced and came in the form of Vera starteing to rapidly stab her mother, accusing her of betraying her. Asako seemed to have called the police since they barged in through the house. Vera stayed in custody away from her mother. Asako was the only one that visited her. Other than her, Vera's mother or Jun were no where in sight. Later on, Vera was sent to a mental treatment center for children (the place was supposedly a community mental health service since Italy had deinstitutionalization.) Her mother was sentenced to prison for twenty years for attempted manslaughter towards Asako and had Jun agree to be Vera's stepfather after Vera's mother left the hospital.
During her stay at the mental center, she started to hear rumors about the place from other children visiting there. The main one was that the place was commiting fraud by having the children stay for more time than they need to stay there. People running the center would lie about the childrens' conditions to keep them there longer. Of course, they were eventually let out so they wouldn't look suspicious. Vera stayed in isolation at the center for awhile. She refused therapy or anyone else's company for several days. All that she did in those days was think without moving at all. She couldn't understand her mother's motivations or what was really going on around her. Vera began to put the blame on what was happening in her life on criminals. Her simple dislike of them for ruining her "fun" in the past turned more repulsive as she thought about them longer. The knife she stabbed her mother with came into her mind, but she started not to feel guilty about it. Instead, Vera thought that anyone doing anything she considered bad deserved any type of punishment. What she kept feeling was vengence, but thought of it as a growing need for justice instead. From events like her mother starting to act weird and her father's death, she blamed it all around crime.
Vera came up with the idea that she could get rid of this thing she resented by killing criminals. She didn't see anything wrong with it at the time. They always appeared as nondesirables to her when she talked to other people, so she felt even more justified when she set what she was going to do in mind. In her mind, Vera started to imagine the world without crime and wanted to make it a reality since authentic things only seemed to be more pleasing to her than daydreaming at the time. After awhile, Vera came out to therapy and pretended to act like she was okay. At the time she turned nine, she managed to trick the staff by acting sane and was released from the mental center. When she returned home, everything seemed to be getting better. Jun was trying to reconcile with his daughter while Asako finished her therapy sessions away from Vera. Asako was frightened by Vera's presence when she came back. That night, Vera managed to pick lock the closet door and get her father's gun. She could remember how holding and using a gun felt, especially how hard it was to hold and aim properly. However, Vera saw it as something she could be secured by once she mastered it.
She started using an airsoft gun as target practice that she managed to steal from a stranger's shed. After awhile, Vera started to sneak out of the house to go outside. The girl would hide in the shadows in alleys until someone that resembled the people she saw online as wanted to shoot down. It didn't matter if the person only didn't have much resemblance, she would shoot them down anyway. This ended up with people who probably didn't do anything wrong being shot down. Vera ran off everytime before anyone could see her. She found shooting people was like a really fun game until she saw the victims' bullet wounds. The look on their faces made her especially sick. Vera tried to make small jokes about their state to herself to make herself feel better. Eventually, she found herself taking in her victims' pain in a new positive light. Shooting down people soon became a light hearted past time for her. In the mist of all of her fun, she still called it justice. Vera didn't want to admit that her reason for shooting people down was just for the fun of it. After awhile, Vera developed ways to sneak around her victims and shoot them with close accuracy.
One day, however, she made a horrible mistake. Vera saw a small energetic girl run past her one day. She thought it would be fun to try to shoot her down when she saw how fast the girl ran. She didn't even think of any consequences at the time that she did it. Two days later, someone managed to sneak up on her and knock her out. When Vera regained consciousness, she found herself in a dark room. A horrible smell mixed with gasoline surrounded her. Feeling her way through the dark, Vera discovered the entire room was wet with gasoline and locked. A young man's voice said that if she wanted to go outside alive, she would have to talk to him until he said it was okay to go. Vera decided to agree with this, but would try to unlock the door at the same time.
He asked her why she was going around shooting people. Vera automatically answered it was for justice, but he instantly interrupted her and said it was for herself. She became defensive and told this man that criminals were continuing activities unnoticed and no one was stopping them. Vera also started to tell the other of certain events that wouldn't happen if it weren't for them. To that, he replied that whatever happened was more of her parents' fault. That they were the ones that had to deal with the consequences of their actions. They were reckless in the way they tried to carry out their goals and didn't think what could possibly happen. Not to mention they acted one their own accounts without thinking of anyone else but their own goals. The man asked her other things like what was justice to her and why she must have it. Without thinking, Vera truthfully told him that it was so she could be happy and have fun.
This answer seemed to get a sickening laugh from the other being in the room. Said being started to insult her on how sad it was that a nine year old uses an excuse like justice for their wrong doings. That it wasn't justice at all since she was no different than someone shooting illegally. He added that she was a monster compared to the so called criminals since he had heard much better reasons for what they do than her. Lastly, he finished off with saying that justice was useless in the first place due to actions being nonreversable. Actions were just an addition to another person's being that could never be taken away with treatment or prison that people have to live with. To the addition of his last words, he also said that actions were just the same, the only difference was how people took them in. Vera became curious enough to stop trying to get the door open and listen. She started to ask him to tell her more due to her intigueness, but he didn't say anything else but, "That won't matter anymore for me or you since the only thing that could keep me alive is seeing you dead. Now that I plan to take you down, there's nothing left anymore. After all, my kid can't function anymore thanks to you." Suddenly, a match was lit and thrown on the room. The flames revealed the little girl Vera shot with a bullet hole on her head.
Fire soon covered the entire area, followed by Vera passing out some time later. Not before she could feel herself burning when everything was set aflame. When Vera woke up, she was in the hospital with Asako next to her. She said to Vera she just happened to be "just passing by" the area and saw the fire, so she called 911. Has she been watching me, Vera thought angerly, why didn't she stop me? She than realized how that really didn't matter. After all, she did save her life. Right there, Vera realized how she had done a horrible thing. It disturbed her knowing that she didn't regret doing it, but rather enjoyed it until the fire. This event caused her to think about her actions more. Afterwards, Vera's sadistic urges became weaker each day. She still found shooting fun but didn't want to get into any trouble, so she planned to use shooting ranges when she got older so she could prevent any misfortune in the future with anyone. Vera thought that what the man said when he was alive made sense, so she soon adapted that way of thinking. She felt more honest and at ease with herself when she recognized how she used criminals as scapegoats and how certain things were her fault.
Vera and Asako somehow became friends again after two years later of avoiding each other. Everything seemed to be going well for awhile until Vera lashed out at Asako when she thought the other stole all of her money. Asako vanished the next day. The following two years was spent looking for the missing girl, but no one could find her. Matters didn't get any better when police found skeleton remains that were found to be someone that's been dead for two years. No one could identify who it was. The only clues given from the details of it all made it sound like the corpse belonged to Asako. After that, Jun had given up completely, but Vera still thought Asako was alive and couldn't believe that the other girl was dead. Vera was shocked when he told her that her name would be Asako Kojima from now on some time later. It seemed he somehow legally changed her name behind her back. The man was now trying to replace his real daughter with her. Both of them moved back to Japan when she was thirteen years old. Everytime she mentioned Asako, he would say that it was Vera that went missing, not Asako. Vera, now called Asako, was having a hard time with the Japanese language and dealing with the guilt of causing the real Asako to run off. She was aware the girl was afraid of her and still had her temper get out of hand. Now it was her fault that she was staying up studying Japanese, she thought.
School was the worse for her. She never felt so pressured in her life to do so many complicated things with a language she barely knew about and could barely communicate with anyone. Asako fell asleep several times due to staying up so long. Eventually, Asako somehow managed to befriend a girl named Kazue Yuu. Kazue helped Asako with Japanese and invited her to go places with her. Asako realized she knew absolutely nothing about this girl or her life, but trusted her anyway. At the time she believed that personal details didn't matter at the time. Everything was going so well when they were together to her. A year later, Kazue and Asako met up somewhere like they usually did. Kazue was crying while she asked Asako if she would run away with her. Asako didn't take her seriously and thought of running away was a fun idea at the time, so she decided to go along with it. However, she planned to come back after a few days. Together, they started to start running around some close by towns. A few days later, the police found them. Some time later after Asako returned home, she found out that Kazue was arrested for something, but no one would tell her what for.
After the incident, she didn't want to assocciate with people around her and started to go on online chatrooms. Asako made sadistic repetitive comments while chatting, which scared people away. She thought it didn't matter since she thought she would never meet them in real life. It was starting to get boring until someone took interest in what she was saying. Before Asako knew it, she was telling whoever it was everything about her. The other person just seemed as friendly as can be while behaving like they were concerned about her. This person told her how she should be more careful and such while chatting online. In return, she still continued her online behavior since Asako was use to chatting like it, so it just seemed normal. Asako felt like she could trust this person after awhile since he didn't seem to be bothered by her strange behavior. Everything seemed to be okay again until Asako got some odd mail two years later. It contained death threats, someone asking her to kill someone with the picture of the person, and others saying that they knew what really happened to a man named Tetsuo Yuu. All of this confused and intimidated her at the same time.
Every time the mail came, Asako threw it out as fast as she could. It seemed all like a prank until phone calls about the same thing happened. There was a certain phone call with a person with a similar voice that kept talking about everything in a vague manner. Asako learned that the caller was the original Asako saying that she was in trouble. Asako started to say how she was sorry to the other one for causing her to run away and to come back home. The real one refused the offer. Original Asako started to explain how she thought it was going to be the end for her since "she would be found out sooner or later." As the discussion went by, Asako figured out that the letters were meant to be directed towards the real Asako, not her. The real Asako seemed to be afraid for her life, saying that people that were trying to find her seemed to give up. Asako started to try and convince her to come back home, but hung up once she mentioned that.
From then on, Asako decided that she would try to distract people that were after the real Asako by claiming that she actually is the real one. Of course, she didn't kill anyone that the letters told her to kill. She just made herself look like she quit whatever the real Asako use to do with these people. It seemed all kinds of people wanted revenge against the real Asako and mistooken her for her due to the name change. It seemed all they found out was a name, but no appearance. Asako realized that the real Asako got in "trouble" in Japan too since Asako founded herself targeted at times. People still had grudges that would only end if they could only kill "Asako."Once they saw her, Asako's appearance gave them an idea and assured them that her image was that of whoever they were going after. Lots of people begun to find out where she was. Asako started to fear for her life, but didn't want to give up for what she thought what was making up for what she did to a childhood friend. There wasn't anyone else Asako knew that lived away from her that would let her live with them and Jun didn't want to move or let her get away from him. When Asako asked the person who always talked to her only, they said that they lived in Ikebukuro.
Seeing that as a far away place Asako could go to, she started to ask if she could live with this person without another thought. The other being seemed shocked at this, saying that he didn't know her in real life and that it was too reckless of a decision. Asako began to realize how silly it was to ask someone she hardly knew to live with them. Next time she went online, her friend seemed to change their mind. For the first time, this person said their name was Nori Ito and that she was "a man trapped in a woman's body." "You can come over as long as you clean the house and do errands for me~," Nori typed in the chat box. Happy to find a place to escape to, Asako went away to meet with this person in the middle of the night. She met up with a female crossdresser in her early twenties that said she was Nori. (Asako confirmed this by the picture the woman gave her in a email.)
Asako was first nervous at first. After awhile, she eventually got comfortable living in Nori's apartment. She couldn't help but feel glad she took a chance and decided to trust this woman. Let's just say this trust of her's for Nori started to "rust" after awhile. Cleaning chores were normal. It was the errands Asako felt uncomfortable about. First, there was a bunch of random objects that Asako was sent to by. She decided to research them and found an article about those same objects making a type of acid at a bookstore Nori liked to visit. The tons of scented air fresheners confused her as well. At times, Nori would kick her out for several days. During those times, Nori gave her money to stay at some hotel. When Asako was allowed back in, the house had a very strong smell of air fresheners that would make her feel dizzy. Asako started to wonder what was going on while she was gone, so she tricked Nori once into believing she left completely. She did leave, but broke into the apartment later. During that time, Asako smelled one of the most horrible smells she ever smelled. It was hard for her to describe, but it was similar to the scent she smelled back in Italy when she was in the fire. One other thing was that the only person Nori would talk to was Asako. Nori would constantly ask Asako the names of anyone she was in contact with lately. It was more strange behavior Asako could never figure out.
Asako's investigation couldn't go further due to Nori starting to be more aware of her presence. Nori must have somehow found out and made sure that Asako couldn't go back while she kicked her out. Two years later into the present, both of them have become friends. Nori is the only friend Asako has never trusted. During her 18th birthday, she was given a pistol and rifle to go use at a shooting range by Nori. Her current life isn't exactly peaceful, but its easy to go along with at the moment.
Roleplay Sample:
Lights surrounded the young woman as she stared in a daze at the scenery around her. Children were running around holding noisemakers while their parents ran after them; warning them to be more careful. Street vendors sold odd shaped food to tourists who later cringed after tasting them. Some music played from a radio behind her where some people were dancing around a colored pole. The entire scenery just seemed to sparkle.
And Asako ...
Asako had no idea where she was at the moment. She didn't care, though. Everything seemed to be going down a drain today since her fight with her roommate Nori. Asako just left the house and wandered around for awhile until she reached this place. What is it, exactly, she thought as her head turned around to gaze at what was around her, what's happening? I wonder if I can join in in all of this fun, too, she wondered, but what if its something I'm suppose to be invited in? That thought apparently didn't hold her back as she started to go towards the dancers. Suddenly, a girl was running past her. She tripped over and started to bawl with a noise that felt like it could rip a nearby person's mind.
However, Asako just smiled softly at the scene. How entertaining, she thought, its like a sudden twist to an exciting story! Everything's just wonderful until something horrible starts the climax! Asako could imagine this girl as some sort of heroine against some odd force. Tripping will apparently be the great evil in the land, Asako mused to herself.
"You're ... so funny ... Miss Protagonist. I think ... I'll wait and see what happens." Asako told the little girl as she knelt down next to her. The little girl didn't even notice her; she just kept crying ...
Favourite Pairing:
ShizuoxIzaya
IzayaxKida
ShinraxCelty
... How about just any pairing with two guys?... or two girls ... I don't know ....
Did you read the rules?: The colourless vigilantes ... I want my mommy :< .... or you will just do : D.